♥ 31 January 2006
monday:
headed to relatives' hse at Yew Tee.
with Joanne, Kenny and lia to Jack's place.
ate as little as possible.
then it was gambling time!
I shld have stop at In-Between.
won $26 bucks and then lost $16 to Kenny in Blackjack.
we then changed the rules of the game;
cans of Tiger beer (yuckk) and Chivas mixed.
the combination was ultimate horrible.
I had to rinse my mouth twice to rid the lingering taste.
In-between killed us 5.
us, girls first.
I looked at lia; sorry, but, I couldn't help laughing at her!!
everything seems ticklish, but whenever I hear her talk, I would start haha-ing.
didnt want to add to Kenny's burden nor going home in a drunken state..
I stayed over.
I don't feel good about it. I, just got knocked out.
I cracked up when I heard from Jack what happened last night.
Till now, I could not stop laughing.
Fear was in me. I totally don't feel good for the irrationale act I've committed.
I was glad I have self-control.
I dont want accidents that was acted out in a moment of folly..
committments that didn't belong to me,
nor regrets that would have hurt 3.
& I want my face.
I feel so ashamed. I feel so scared.
I look forward to next month. I dont' want the worst to come.
I wish,
I can collapse on the floor and sleep forever.
___ @ 22:08!